Almost Done Standing Still

It’s almost August and I haven’t travelled since the beginning of February.  For a while, I thought it might kill me.  My heart sank every time I got travel promos in my Outlook inbox or when I saw a really beautiful place in a movie.  But when I signed up to take my yoga teacher training at the beginning of 2015, I knew I would go NOWHERE until it was complete – for seven whole months.  My last month is September.  By my birthday on the 30th, I hope to have all my hours in and be a for-realz yoga teacher. (Yessssssssss!)

Because I’ve been standing still for so long (it feels), I’m not sure where to go first.  There are so many possibilities!  I don’t even know where to point myself.  Just put me in a plane and don’t tell me where I’m going and I’ll still be happier than a pig in shit!

As for knitting and crochet, we’re not allowed any personal items in the communication centre anymore. That means no knitting for me.  I’m finding it really hard to stay awake (we all are) when there’s nothing going on in the wee hours of the morning.  Watch YouTube videos you say?  BLOCKED.  Yep.  Almost everything is blocked. The moral in our department is a little poopy.  Thank goodness I love my coworkers.

So, because I can’t work on my anything at work (and I spent a lot of hours there), and I have an otherwise busy schedule, I have no time to knit, crochet, design.  It takes me a month to make a five-hour pair of slippers.  It’s really difficult to be inspired and motivated when you just barely have time to work a few rounds of a project at a time.

I’ve had no time to spin, or dye yarn, or write patterns.  Can you tell I’m bitter?  So unlike me.

Travel.  It’s the light at the end of my tunnel.  Mind you, I pretty much have to wait for 2016 to do anything because I’m broke right now.  Teacher training is a fortune and I’ve had to put some money into my house this summer.  The roofers are here right now re-shingling half my roof because I can’t afford to do the whole thing.  Hahahaha.  And I used up all my time banks at work for the training and a few weeks off here and there.  I have a week off between Christmas and New Years.  The wheels are turning.  Big time!  I’m thinking of going to Brazil to meet up with a girl I met a few years back in NYC.  Hmmmmm.

Here’s are a few projects I’ve managed to finish in the last few months.

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A few adorable little babies, my big baby and lots of little knitted things.  That’s what I’ve managed in the last 8 months.  I have a few spinning things on my Instagram too if you want to go check that out.

I’m off to spend the day with myself and some fiber.  :)

Shakespeare was a smart dude!

I know that sounds pretty funny but, seriously. I heard one of his quotes today: “It is not in the stars to hold our destiny, but in ourselves.” If you think about that for a second or two, it’s his pretty way of saying that we all hold the key to our respective destinies. Kind of huge right? It blows my mind a little bit. What does that mean exactly?

The last year and a bit, for me, my destiny has been to travel. I’ve been to so many places: Chicago, California, NYC, New Orleans, Las Vegas, Jordan, PEI, and lastly, Peru. Some big trips and some small trips. Loved every one of them for their own special reasons.

Machu Picchu ,Peru

Machu Picchu ,Peru

BUT, I also got lost somewhere. The reasons for this is not important. What is important is that I see it and know I need to do something about it.

I realized that I now need to learn to stand still. It came to me when the thought of not having plans to travel for the week I have off in the beginning of December terrified me. A whole week off, wasted. Can you imagine? I couldn’t. Until someone pointed out that my fear was not rational – a little nudge towards a wake-up call.  So, here goes: a week off with no plans to travel. What to do instead?

I started knitting again in a big way when the Christmas orders started coming in. And at some point, I fell in love with my creativity again. There’s something exciting about thinking of something in your head and being able to make it happen with your hands and some yarn. It makes me feel like a genius! Being creative makes my heart smile.

This headband is a modification of a pictures someone sent me.  And probably a future pattern.

This headband is a modification of a picture someone sent me. And probably a future published pattern of mine.

One of my next patterns.

One of my next patterns.

Christmas orders.

Christmas orders.

Baby gift made with my handspun.

Baby gift made with my scrumptious hand spun.

An idea in my head that I made into a cup cosy.

An idea in my head that I made into a cup cosy.

Pattern I wrote for this hat I love.

Pattern I wrote for this hat I love.

Yoga. I need to get back to yoga. I feel more connected to my body and my soul when I keep up a regular practice. I rolled out my mat this morning for the first time in months. Boy am I tight all over!! Amazing how little time it takes to undo how far I had come and how strong and supple my body had become. This morning, I felt like a brittle, and tight old lady. Hahahah. It’s a start though.

I’m also thinking of giving knitting lessons or workshops in the new year. I’ve never really taught before and I fear I will lack patience. When something is so natural to me, I find it difficult to comprehend that it is not easy for everyone. I don’t want to scare people away from knitting or crochet because I suck at teaching it.

I also want to start publishing more patterns (see above). I’m always making things without patterns but very rarely write anything down. I’m going to start. A few extra $ will help me when I start traveling again.

Tomorrow is December.  That means Christmas is coming.  I’ve hated Christmas since I started having to share my son for the holidays (1999).  It’s just not the same when you can’t wake up with your child on Christmas morning.  In 2011, a friend of mine gave me a beautiful (and hilarious) memory for Christmas.  This year, I really want to make it feel like Christmas again.  I put up a tree for the first time in eight years.  I also plan to put thoughtful gifts for the people I love under that tree.  I’m very excited.  I am also scared it won’t be what it am hoping it will be.

THE Christmas tree of 2014!

THE Christmas tree of 2014!

"J" for Jacob.

“J” for Jacob.

This little thing is 38 years old.

This little thing is 38 years old.

Shakespeare had another really good one:  “Expectation is the root of all heartache.”  I will try to remember this as I navigate the holidays.

In case I don’t write again until the new year (which is very likely if I’m being realistic), Merry Christmas and Happy New Year everyone.

I’m Home!

I’m so happy to be home.  Words can’t even describe how wonderful it feels.  This house (even though it’s just a house) makes me feel grounded and surrounded by peace.  It’s good for my little ol’ soul.

Jordan was amazing in more ways than one.  The scenery was breathtaking.  But the best part was the people.  We built a house in a small village.  Every night, we had dinner in one of their homes.  They were truly warm and beautiful people.  I’ll have to go through my pictures at some point and post a few.

In the meantime, this is what I’ve been up to.

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Enjoying my space.

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A little painting.

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Setting up new outside furniture (I’ve always wanted Adirondack chairs!).

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Enjoying time with my new roomie.

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BFF tattoos.  A bit cheesy, I know.  But it makes me smile every time I look at it.

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My son the rock star.  Love him to pieces and so proud of him.

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Started a new 30-Day Yoga Challenge.  Woohoo.

Life is great!

The Countdown is ON.

From 52 sleeps to now 13 sleeps until I leave for Jordan.  It sort of snuck up on me to be honest.  I found myself looking at my schedule last week and thinking that I needed to move my arse and start getting my things ready.  Between work and the rest of my life, I don’t have too much time left to get ready.

As soon as I finish this blog post, I’m going to dig up my suitcase.  Yeah!

It’s gearing up to be a very busy couple of months.  Right after my trip, I’ll be moving back home.  Yahoo!  My tenants bought a house and will be gone by the time I get back – a month early.  Even though it hit me a bit below the financial belt, I can’t wait to go back home.  This means I get to enjoy the whole summer.  I’m so excited.

BUT, I will admit that the thought of not having money to travel anymore, once I’m back home, really lets the air out of my balloon in a big way.  I’m giving myself until October, after Peru, and then I will decide if I’ll put the house up for sale.  I LOVE my house.  But if it costs me my freedom to travel, I don’t know if I can sacrifice that.

This is what I’ve been up to:

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Dying silk hankies for Bonnie’s workshop.

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Finishing and sending off Susie’s Annis Shawl.

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Teaching my sock knitting workshop.

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Going to the spa with the girls.

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Our fourth annual guild spinning retreat.

Now I’m off to pack.